heyfrank

RIP Feb. 14th, 1992 - Nov 6th, 2009

Today was terrible, great night last night, well I thought.

I dropped of Sean and then called my dad back to hear that my parents had to bring Benji into the emergency vet to put him down because he had another really bad seizure this time. This seizure though had Benji in a ton of pain for a few hours and the vet recommended it was time i guess. Please keep in mind, Benji does not cry and he was crying from 2am till 4am. He doesn’t even move for the slightest shot when he has to get some, he was the nicest dog ever to everyone. Never bit anyone, never snapped at anyone and never meant any harm to anyone. He was a trooper during any doctor visit, and no matter what, he would always recover from being sick or hurt. A dog who has fought through cancer and tumors being removed and much much more.

Benji on his 1 year birthday.

For 17 years he stood by my side basically, my best friend thru everything and anything since i was about 4 years old. This dog has been thru everything with me and everywhere, including every family vacation. We refused to leave him at home or in a kennel, instead we made sure he was with us every time we left for a vacation.

I remember days he would run up and hop up onto my bed and wake me up by licking my face until i noticed him. Or how even later on in his recent days he was hard of hearing and he would only respond to me or my name being called. My mom would tell him that I was home when he looked nervous or bored, and he would get really excited. My mom had said when he was sedated last night that she told him I was home and his eyes slightly moved open looking for me. I think the most upsetting part about this is that I didn’t get to say my goodbyes. At about that same time we were on our way home from Lincoln Park to Taylor Street and Joe had mentioned how his family decided to get their first dog, well actually dogs soon. Which happens to be terriers also. Kind of ironic. 

Benji sleeping…

I hate being able to remember what you were doing at a certain time when something may of happened when you could of been there, its really upsetting.

I’m going to miss coming home to Benji when no one else is home and he’s happy to see me, or when I wake up and he’s the first thing i see. it’s going to be different, and its going to suck that he’s not here… To the point where i wish i could just hold him again and pet him again…

(I’m sure i’ll add more to this…)